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Rehab Diary Day 5: Thursday November 12, 2020 TW: Suicide, Self Harm, Depression, Anxiety


I had to be woken up this morning to see the Dr. They upped my PTSD medicine Prozosin. It made me sleep hard last night. 

I don't like feeling sleepy all day long. He wants me to give it one more night before I stop it. He said if I can't wake up today I can refuse it tonight. I just wish there was a cure. I'm so tired of trying all these medications. I can say that my depression and anxiety are getting better. I'm just anxious to go home and see my son. I miss him so much and I feel like a failure as a mom right now. These last few weeks have been so stressful on him. I know that I am doing the best thing I can for him right now by trying to take care of myself. I don't know if he understands that though. I feel like he is probably scared since he has already had one parent abandon him. I don't want him to be afraid that he will be an orphan which is what he would be if I don't get better. 




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