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Hello. My name is Elektra. I am a single Mom. I have raised my son on my own from the time he was 4 years old. His father abandoned him and hasn't been heard from since. All of that time I have been just a mom. I don't feel like I have had my own identity. I recently decided that I want to start living for me. All this time I have had someone so dependent on me that I lost myself. Now he is a teenager. So here I am finding out who I really am. I am discovering new things about myself. Some have been pretty surprising. I hope that you will follow along with me as I figure things out.

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